Life. Life is a beautiful gift from God. I love my life. I love the fact that I am a born again believer. I love the fact that I have eternal life. One day, when the life in this body is no more, my soul will live forever with the One who loves me best and most...God.
God has given me the desires of my heart. I love my life as a wife, mother, and mammi. I have a wonderful husband who loves me in spite of my shortcomings. I love the fact that I am at home keeping the home fires burning while Hubby works hard to provide for our family. I love being a mother. It is the hardest job on earth, but it has the best rewards! I love being a mammi! I get to see my children nurture their children and I get to spoil the grands and send them home! I love the fact that my adult children want to come over and I have grands running around my home.
So, why do I feel like I am spinning in circles? Some days I feel like I get nothing accomplished. Laundry is "caught-up" for the most part. We always get our school lessons finished. Dinners are not gourmet meals, but I'm a pretty good cook and no one is starving when we leave the dinner table. My home is not spotless, but it's not a total wreck either.
Lately I feel like I am living in a house of "littles". You know, little people, ages 5 and under. Not that my nesters act like "littles", but the being busy with lots of "littles". Am I making sense? Maybe a more appropriate word would be overwhelmed. Every task seems like a mountain.
I love to read. So far since January I have read three books, and I am currently in the process of reading four more at the same time. You may think, "That's why she is overwhelmed!" Maybe, but the first three were for fun, these four I am working on now are for me.
1) Wheat Belly by William Davis. {I am halfway through this book, but need to let it go until I get the others read.}
2) Raising a Daughter After God's Own Heart by Elizabeth George. Oh my! Very good!
3) desperate Hope of the Mom Who Needs to Breathe by Sarah Mae and Sally Clarkson.I cry with this book. So far I can so relate to both women!
4) Managers of Their Homes by Steven and Teri Maxwell. This is "a practical guide to daily scheduling for the Christian homeschool families".
I am not very far into the last three, but I will get them read! Managers of Their Homes is my top priority.
For a long time when the oldest half of our family were young nesters I had a black index box with chore cards. I had it divided up for things that needed to be done daily; certain days of the week; twice a month; and once a month. Loved it! But as the family grew and demands of preemies and homeschooling grew, it was a little more difficult to keep up with it. So I started shouldering most of the responsibility and would ask for volunteers or would "draft" nesters to help. Sometimes it was just easier to do it myself. But lately I have been in tears as I stare at my mountains. (Are you seeing why the last three books are being read together?) I have found myself good for no one. (is that even proper English?)
So, me, the mom who should have it all figured out with 14 children, is desperate of being a manager of my home, while raising my daughters, and sons after God's own heart! I am ever reminded of turning my eyes on the One who loves me for me, and is so very patient with me.
Be patient with me, I will be giving updates on what I am reading and how God is using it in my life!
God has given me the desires of my heart. I love my life as a wife, mother, and mammi. I have a wonderful husband who loves me in spite of my shortcomings. I love the fact that I am at home keeping the home fires burning while Hubby works hard to provide for our family. I love being a mother. It is the hardest job on earth, but it has the best rewards! I love being a mammi! I get to see my children nurture their children and I get to spoil the grands and send them home! I love the fact that my adult children want to come over and I have grands running around my home.
So, why do I feel like I am spinning in circles? Some days I feel like I get nothing accomplished. Laundry is "caught-up" for the most part. We always get our school lessons finished. Dinners are not gourmet meals, but I'm a pretty good cook and no one is starving when we leave the dinner table. My home is not spotless, but it's not a total wreck either.
Lately I feel like I am living in a house of "littles". You know, little people, ages 5 and under. Not that my nesters act like "littles", but the being busy with lots of "littles". Am I making sense? Maybe a more appropriate word would be overwhelmed. Every task seems like a mountain.
I love to read. So far since January I have read three books, and I am currently in the process of reading four more at the same time. You may think, "That's why she is overwhelmed!" Maybe, but the first three were for fun, these four I am working on now are for me.
1) Wheat Belly by William Davis. {I am halfway through this book, but need to let it go until I get the others read.}
2) Raising a Daughter After God's Own Heart by Elizabeth George. Oh my! Very good!
3) desperate Hope of the Mom Who Needs to Breathe by Sarah Mae and Sally Clarkson.I cry with this book. So far I can so relate to both women!
4) Managers of Their Homes by Steven and Teri Maxwell. This is "a practical guide to daily scheduling for the Christian homeschool families".
I am not very far into the last three, but I will get them read! Managers of Their Homes is my top priority.
For a long time when the oldest half of our family were young nesters I had a black index box with chore cards. I had it divided up for things that needed to be done daily; certain days of the week; twice a month; and once a month. Loved it! But as the family grew and demands of preemies and homeschooling grew, it was a little more difficult to keep up with it. So I started shouldering most of the responsibility and would ask for volunteers or would "draft" nesters to help. Sometimes it was just easier to do it myself. But lately I have been in tears as I stare at my mountains. (Are you seeing why the last three books are being read together?) I have found myself good for no one. (is that even proper English?)
So, me, the mom who should have it all figured out with 14 children, is desperate of being a manager of my home, while raising my daughters, and sons after God's own heart! I am ever reminded of turning my eyes on the One who loves me for me, and is so very patient with me.
Be patient with me, I will be giving updates on what I am reading and how God is using it in my life!
I can only imagine how you must feel! Just know that you are doing God's will, and doing it well! I see the great children you have and are raising and know that you are fulfilling your purpose. You do need to delegate some more, I think, because if you do everything, you are not letting them learn and grow. Rest assured you make a difference...even when you can't see it. Love you girlie!
ReplyDeleteThanks Kathy! I keep praying the difference I make is a good one! I love you bunches and am so glad God put you in my life!
DeleteI agree with Kathy, you need to delegate to these youngsters and teach them the value of hard work. My kids have thanked me for that. It shocked me! I remember feeling overwhelmed a lot through the years, and the feeling that it's easier to do it myself. I wish I lived closer, I would love to lend a hand! I feel like I have so much time on my hands nowadays! Hugs, girlfriend!
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